AM I EVER GOING TO HAVE TIME FOR THIS?

I try to do too much at once and am always rushing myself. My goal for the next 28 days is to write something daily, whether or not i feel inspired to do so. If I don't have this set up and feel good about it before the trial is up then i am just going to give up. speaking of giving up- i am now officially giving up on capitalization rules. yeah. fuck it. i don't need capitals. bored yet? i am bored. i am boring the shit out of myself here. so i'll just talk about what i did last night and today. last night i went to my business associate's house and we worked on some plans for our upcoming craft show. this will be the second craft show we've done. i really like my business associate because she's super calm and really talented. i have lots of hyper, uncentered energy and she sort of balances me out. also- believe it or not- we have no competition issues. this, i think, is the key to success. she's funny because she doesn't eat any meat or dairy products anymore. so she made us a really interesting soybean and couscous sushi fusion concoction for dinner. it was very good! but hello? i was gassy as hell. i had to get the f out of there and go fart up a storm on the walk to the broad street line. glutton for punishment that i am, i made beans and rice for dinner tonight. you, my non-existent audience, are so lucky you aren't here with me physically. because this is an ugly scene. on to today- the place where i work has recently been bought by some giant corporation. we used to be a small, independent company with a lot of balls and a lot of fun, awesome people. this was pretty much the dream company to work for in the area. keg parties and bowling during lunch hour(s). everyone was young and funny and silly. it was a great place to show up everyday. now, i still have some cool friends left but most of them are gone or going. the vibe of the place is super shady. noone really believes we're going to keep our jobs. all in all, it's limbo and it's negative and it's BORING. so today a few of us said fuckit and took a 2 hour lunch break to go see "wedding crashers". it was much better than sitting at my desk but it still sucked. a lot of other stuff happened but i am tired and this is not fun. it's not funny. my blog is not fun or funny. i am so glad that i have told absolutely no one about it and that no one is reading it. i'll get better in a week or two.